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so....exciting... [08 May 2004|04:09pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

300 candy necklaces and a coke at costco 35 bucks. man oh man.

I have more new pictures, just IM me to see them and i'll email them to you.

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p.s. I can't breath [06 May 2004|09:56am]
[ mood | stressed ]

Jesus christ, im fucking dying. and I don't know why. I mean i do. and its stupid its not stupid, its just absurd. but its not absurd...its fucking normal..but for anyone other than me. Whats going on. Whats wrong. why am I shy? or just too pussy to figure it out, because i obviously care. im at school and I shouldn't be in this class. I shouldn't have went to last class, I won't go to next class and I have spare last. Im being ignored...not ignored, just not aknowledged as I would like to be. Thats the whole problem. I am not aknowledged as I should be. As I fucking deserve to be. Im dying because im not used to not getting what I want and I want to be aknowledged. I want to know more people than this. I WANT TO FUCKING have friends here. More than 2. I want friends that will hang out with me on the weekend and not just at school. But im too shy to ask anyone to hang out, or even suggest it. I.will.die.slowly.

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Bad news [02 May 2004|10:50pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

There's school. ugh..looks like its bed time for me.


I can't figure out if I have school tomorrow or not... [02 May 2004|10:25pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

I miss people...people that I neglected too much when I was at home. Who knew i'd miss them. I bought tickets (excuse me a ticket because no one else will go with me...because well no one else likes the music, so im stuck going all by my fucking self..but since i only have one friend i guess i can't expect people to go and since when i moderatly talk to a few people who actually like the music i have someone bitching at me for talking to them. ugh.) to Ozzfest yesterday. How exciting is that? I can't decide what happening with me. Or maybe im just not given enough information. Could I be being neglected? I am not sure what to think about the whole Chris situation (smoke,do drugs, and talk to kids who he doesn't like and get thrown out basically)...because he waited until 10:00 to call me, but I was gone. Five minutes later when I got home I called him back and convinently no one answer. sketchy, no? Oh well you know what, i'll live..

how i long for a razor and some numbing codine.

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True Love [02 May 2004|03:43pm]
[ mood | crazy ]

'I love you', she smiles, red lipstick smeared across her cheek
All he can do is turn away
For seeing what he's about to do can only make him stay
He takes his first but not last pull at the trigger
It slides back with ease
Closing his eyes and with a bang
She's been erased
He tidy's up the room and places a ring into her hand
He finishes their letter
One stating what they have done
And with his final signature, he grabs the gun
And now for the dissappering act of the very last show
He points the gun toward his heart
He's ready to go
He looks into her staring eyes and mouths 'I love you too'
He pulls the freezing metal
Knowing what he's about to do
And with the final echoing noise, he collapses to the floor
His eyes fixated on her body
He gathers enough strength to say 'I love you' once more

They planned this carefully
Not wanted to ever be apart
They wrote their vows on a bullet to be shot into their heart


Andrew's perfect journal entry [01 May 2004|01:20am]
[ mood | excited ]

My wish came true today cause Andrew finally called me <33333333 He said he's writing me a song...i wonder what it will be about. I am so nervous :sigh:. He's a dream boat...toot toot.

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